1 Year BFP Anniversary

*BFP means Big Fat Positive*

Today is the 1 year anniversary of when I found out I was pregnant with my beautiful daughter Delilah. I can't believe I was pregnant at this time last year & now here I am with my little munch who completes our lives.

I really feel like I owe a big thank you to one of the girls on my one board. Her name is Brianna & without her immense knowledge & guidance regarding PCOS and trying to conceive. I wouldn't be here today (even though John had something to do with this too hehe). When I was seeing the fertility dr., he put me on 50 mg. of Clomid initially. I was instructed to take the Clomid & to later come in for bloodwork. If I didn't ovulate on 50 mg. then I would be switched to 100 mg of Clomid. If I did ovulate on 50 mg. of Clomid then we would just try 50 mg. again. Now, I did ovulate on 50 mg. of Clomid but it wasn't a strong ovulation. However, the dr. wasn't going to increase my Clomid dosage. Also my luteal phase was only 10 days (which I read could impact getting pregnant because an egg implants at 7-10 days past ovulation & 10 days is on the short side). Anyway, my friend Brianna encouraged me to call the dr. & request that he increase my dose of Clomid to 100 mg and to also ask for prometrium to help lengthen my luteal phase. I did. And by the 3rd cycle of trying to conceive (1 cycle of 50 mg. of Clomid and 2 cycles of 100 mg. of Clomid with 2 rounds of prometrium) we were blessed. So thank you Brianna for encouraging me to be an advocate for my own TTC journey.

Here are some pics of Delilah from the other day playing with the monkey that another friend of mine from the same board, Jenn, got her for a babyshower gift...

Food Fun

Last night we gave Delilah her first "solid" food... rice cereal. Now, I now you're supposed to wait until your pediatrician gives you the go ahead (about 4 months) but ours technically did. Delilah has had problems with spitting up after her feedings. Even if she's burped after the feeding she'll still regurgitate immediately after or even hours later. Anyway, Dr. M said we could put rice cereal in her bottle. That'd probably work a lot better if she took to the bottle more willingly but she doesn't so I figured, what the heck? Off we went to Walmart to buy cute bowls & spoons to feed her with and home we came to use them. She did very well for it being her first time & took to the spoon pretty decently. Below are some pics of her enjoying her first meal of rice cereal.

Yesterday morning I was sitting with Delilah in the bedroom. While entertaining herself she spotted the ribbon on my night shirt & grabbed it. She decided it looked like a tasty treat which made me decide to invest in a taggies stuffed animal. I never would've known about these if it wasn't for Delilah's Auntie Ashley (who is coincidentally my best friend... she bought Landon the cutest taggies dinosaur). Although I think $16 is a bit steep to pay for a stuffed animal with random ribbon tags on it, I got it in my mind to buy it & darn it that's what I was going to do! Below are pics of her new taggies giraffe (and some after bath pics :-) )

Before (I know, no bumbos on high surfaces ~but~ I was sitting right there)


The first bite!



Mmm...


Helping mom feed me


My new taggies alligator, er rhino, er Giraffe (Daddy can't keep it straight! ;-) )
Thanks Auntie Ashley for introducing mommy to these!!



Freshly bathed

The Ba- Part II

~Edit: I wanted to wait to talk to my mom. When I'm at an indecision she's pretty good at making up my mind for me LoL I pretty much had decided that I wanted to ask for the 1 month I have left of my allotted time (I keep saying ask for it but really I'm entitled to it). Mom suggested writing a letter & sending it snail mail. That way I won't have to deal with the ogre named J. I don't know why but this guy intimidates me & is kind of scary. I hate feeling the way I do... I shouldn't have to feel afraid to tell them I want that extra month to spend with my family. I know I overthink things and I'll be a mess after I send the letter but like my mom said tonight- I have to stop worrying, things will work out (you'd think I'd know that by now!).~
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Yesterday we tried the bottle again & Delilah did pretty well. She didn't complain, she didn't get upset & she even sucked on it some. I think it won't be very long before she completely gets it. I'm so proud of her!

She's mastered rolling over from tummy to back but hasn't quite gotten back to tummy yet. She's working on it though & seems to get a little closer each time she tries. She doesn't seem to know what to do with her arm though & that's stopping her from going on her side to complete the roll.

John asked me yesterday if I could request another month off from work. As silly as this sounds, while I really would love to do that, I'm afraid to ask. I mean, the worst they could say is no (which they really can't do because according to the Union contract I am entitled to 6 months and I've only taken 5). They weren't happy with me taking 6- what I was going to take originally- and so because I thought I was going to be getting this promotion promised to me, I cut it down. Yea, just by 1 month but I wasn't going to sacrifice a large chunk of my time with my daughter for them. Family comes first & they don't get that there.. even though they have families of their own. They are men though so what else could I expect? I'm torn by what I want to do and what I'm afraid to ask for :-(


Pappy Hans

Grammy Hans

Daddy playing around with the camera

Scaring up a laugh

I love it

I love it when a friend meets Delilah for the first time. I love seeing the reaction they have- especially when they hold her for the first time. And even more so if they're not used to holding children. There's this fear- you can almost smell it LoL Not that I wasn't the same way before. I didn't know the "right" way exactly to hold a kid. And I always thought something was wrong with me because they'd cry. John's niece Abby cried, Shawn cried... Landon didn't- although Landon had been out in the world for a few hours & was tired from all the excitement. I must excuse Shawn from this "classification" because he was fresh out of the proverbial oven. Lots going on for that little man. Nothing is more special than being a part of a birth & seeing that little life coming out. I got to experience that with my best friend & she, for the most part, got to experience it with me. I would've loved to experience pushing Delilah out & having John, Ashley & my mom there. But Delilah was a stubborn one (still is!) and she decided she'd rather come out a different way. It was still special though :-)

Smell the fear ;-)



Freshly bathed

The Ba

O our bottle woes... we should've stuck with it when we first gave her one at 3 weeks. But at that point I didn't have an electric pump. I only had the crappy manual one the hospital gave me to take home. You couldn't pump out anything with that P.O.S. Yes, we tried formula in the bottle as well but she only took that like twice. We were using playtex drop-ins and tried a NUK bottle. Nothing. Then we tried a soothie bottle. No way!! Our last attempt with a new bottle is with a bottle that I like to call the "Boobie Bottle". Seriously it looks like one. I thought Delilah would take to that but she still resists. And to top it off she'll only really take the bottle from me. It's either the bottle or the boob... both of which she can get from me. I just have this fear that I'll go back to work & she won't take it... she'll wait for me to get home. And believe me, she would. She's gone 5 hours without eating because she wouldn't take the bottle from John.

Today we stayed in- it was nice but I'll be ready tomorrow to go out. I have a dr. appointment tomorrow & after that I'll be headed to Walmart for a few things. I'm also going to pick up her 3 month pics we got done at Sears. Around 1:00 my friend Rebecca is coming to visit- her first time meeting Delilah. I'm excited :-D

Ear Wax & Poop

I don't think anyone will ever say that motherhood doesn't come with some sort of grossness... the other day Delilah had a piece of ear wax in her ear. I decided I'm going to try to blow it out. Bad idea. I blow on the piece of ear wax and out of her ear it flies... in to my mouth!! :-p Ew...

Yesterday John goes to change her diaper after she left out a couple toots because she was wet. No sooner did he have her diaper open & her legs up to wipe her did she let out another toot and a heavy poop flow. Thank goodness the diaper was underneath her. And yes, it was hilarious!

Yummy fingers!

My two loves

The lip (I just woke up from a nap)